i feel it around me breaking in
this darkness that's been left inside me
slowly creaping out again

now i know i feel inspired
mearly for the joy
but i feel the paranoia
and why it cant be.

the noises and the visions
why is it i see them
they are just things that fill my head
why have they come back again

no in the presence of all this joy
i feel some of this lifted off
but still there always remains
the secret darkness that stays inside
no matter what i do
and how hard i've tried
it stays and remains
haunting me at every turn
making me fear what i can not see
as if it was really there
but what you may as reading through this
well that is the question
that i have no answer to